Things I Put Away
I am not sure when it happened
Or if my decision was a conscious one
But at some point I put them away
It was and is a big part of me
My child within
Who is not afraid to ask
Who is not afraid to need
Who is not afraid to be wrong
Who is not afraid to love
I censor now
I am afraid now
I worry now
Colors do not bring about
Quizzical wonder and amazement
Discovery and re-discovery
Lost along with the need to investigate and explore
Caution and danger replace adventure and freedom
I do not cry anymore
I do not marvel anymore
I do not dream anymore
I do not forgive anymore
I measure and time and watch and hide and cling…
To the enormous adult wall I built for myself
Anxious, mumbling, angry, fearful…God
I think its time to look for
The things I put away
BR
Bill Raynor
Director of Athletics, Recreation and Wellness
MassBay CC
Wellesley Hills, Ma. 02481
(p) 781-239-2665
(c) 781-239-2669
